These past
weeks have been just really busy, even when I am doing nothing, my mind keeps
thinking about something. And there are times I feel like 24 hours a day is
just not enough. My mood swings a lot, too. So, forgive me for those who might
have tasted my wrath!
I can’t
seem to understand but this has been a pattern for a while; I found the odd
semester would always be messed up. Maybe that’s why they call it ‘odd’ (okay
this has nothing to do with it), or maybe it’s just because of my brain starts
to work again after 3 months of relaxing so it hasn’t worked with all its power
(okay this is a positive thinking!). Anyway I’m thankful for having wonderful
people around me that in spite of this mess which takes me down pretty much, they
will always come and draw a smile on my face.
Yesterday
was a lovely day, I got a chance to watch Big Hero 6 which I have been
anticipated since months ago and never thought that it would be this awesome –
totally in love with Baymax! I wish Hiro could give one to me. I laughed a lot,
too. It’s been a while since the last time watching a movie that doesn’t need
me to think much. Probably since The Guardians of Galaxy. I’m not sure since
when I have begun to love Marvels.
Christmas
is just a month away and I hope it can come sooner! Even though I don’t
officially celebrate it, it has always been my favorite special day because
everything seems to be cheerful. I had a
simple wish last Christmas and it’s been fulfilled already so I don’t actually
have a specific wish this year. I just hope that everything will become better
in the future, that I will be a better person and bring happiness to those
around me.
I learnt
two valuable things a while ago : the first one, I need to be grateful for
everything I have. They say that you will be able to realize how precious a
thing is after you lose it. The very thing that has always been with me and I
can’t seem to sense its importance just lost and in that very moment I was so sick
worried. I was about to give up (after I prayed) but then it showed up! That’s
when I felt so grateful and I don’t want to lose it ever again.
The second
one is that I need to put more faith in my loved ones. Life has taught me to
depend only to myself because others may let you down unexpectedly and I can’t
seem to forget this lesson. That’s why I tend to have doubts and let myself
think too much about something. I can hardly put my mind at ease for the fear
that someday the person I love will leave me. I thought I would never be able
to trust again. But the something occurred to me and now I want to give it a
go. There are things that don’t need much explanation in words but surely you
can feel them. Even if it’s not spoken clearly, deep down I know it exists.
Follow your heart, and you will find them in the sweetest place.
